the ides of march

life's been kicking me in the ass lately, thus my lack of entries here. in the last week i've discovered (1) that i owe the government a nauseating sum of money (scratch that: i owe my father a nauseating sum of money) because, basically, i suck at math. (2) my company unleashed a serious round of layoffs of Wednesday and we lost someone from our own little team - a very sobering, downright sad experience. (3) my Gram isn't doing so well, which breaks my heart like you have no idea. and (4) i'm realizing there's a flip side to being engaged. along with the happy-happy-joy-joy feelings, at least for me, there's a whole 'ohmigod-how-will-we-ever-do-this' scared shitless aspect. i blame the ginormous tax bill and current job uncertainty... and, of course, my fun habit of overthinking.

regardless, it's exhausting.

i've been coping by reading like a fiend (finished "A Tree Grows in Brooklyn" last week and started "The Sun Also Rises") and working out as much as my muscles will allow and taking solace in the fact that spring is just around the corner. everything feels better in the springtime...

mb